Friday, January 8, 2010

Live, grow, change ...Or something like that!

Well, where to start.. I write all the time for myself and thought that this could be easy. I think right now I was wrong. I am looking at the screen and wishing I could somehow through osmosis let you all in to my head so that you could watch a video of my life. An edited version of course.I would take out the parts where I looked like a fool, or of course bathroom scenes and awkward sex scenes. The video would allow you to know me.The child I was and the woman I became and why. Since that video can not be accessed I hope to give you an understanding of me.Not the one I sugarcoat, but me, the real deal.I am a survivor of life. A student of mankind.Real and self conscious just like you. I learn from everything I experience. That is the goal! It is hard and I am sometimes stupid.

I hope that you are in for the ride with me and that I can in someway help you find yourself through my story.I hope that I can give you the insight that I have to help you to learn, grow and change in the direction that you wish. I am far from perfect here trust me folks...At least 30 pounds overweight and 40 and freaking out about it. I will as my goal try to do this everyday and I will start from where I am at in life.Ya know who I am now and what I am like. I hope ya hang in for the ride with me...That is if anyone reads this! If not then I guess it is for me and my own self awareness. I am a work in progress! A survivor! So I will start my story tomorrow!

Tonight I will think about that video and how to relay it to you....It will not be easy! Hold on to your hats!

2 comments:

Petitfoureyes said...

Well, I'm looking forward to reading your blog!! :) This is Kaherawaks, btw, and my blog which I need to update more is petitfoureyes.blogspot.com.

I'll add you!
xo

jennifer said...

Now that I've spent my morning reading and rereading threw my tears and fears. I find (solice)maybe I'm not sure if thats right. I found myself in your words, scaring the shit out of myself. Not the same as you but close in to many ways. I came from a loving family that took in many people. That had homes like you, I became their outlet. I'm not ready to open up like you. I live a lie, scared to show my self. living what everyone thinks I should. I thre wmy self into everything but me. Confused about many things and why they have happened and blame myself. I;ll follow you, and pray for you maybe finding some peace in myself through your strengths.